WHEN WILL PEOPLE FUCKING REALIZE THAT
DO YOU HAVE ANY FUCKING IDEA
HOW IMPOSSIBLE IT IS
TO LOOK LIKE THIS???
IT’S 100% FUCKING ILLOGICAL TO EXPECT MEN TO HAVE THIS RIPPED SIX-PACK ABS AND BE SKINNY AND HAVE PERFECT SKIN AND FACIAL COMPLEXION! MEN ALSO EXPERIENCE BEING UNCOMFORTABLE WITH OUR BODIES ALL. THE. FUCKING. TIME.
Night of Nights?
As Prom grows closer and closer, I am beginning to feel less and less excited for it. Sure it is TONIGHT, but I don’t really see the magnitude of it anymore. I mean, besides the $120+ dollars already invested in this event, the stress of trying to figure out what to wear after Tara changed the color scheme at the last minute, and the hope that I won’t get lost while driving all the way out to FRIGGIN LAKE LAS VEGAS, there isn’t much excitement.
I’m trying my best to imagine this night as being a great one, but I really don’t know anymore. I hadn’t intended on going to prom in the first place, but I changed my mind after Tara and I got together because I knew she really wanted to go. But with the crowded building, the expensive price, the distance of the venue and the presence of half the people who have grown to bitterly hate my guts over the years, there really isn’t any one thing I am looking forward to. I like spending time with Tara no matter what, but being AT PROM isn’t really that important to me. IDK, things are just seeming like a hassle now.
Additionally, AFTER prom is over, what is left? A few more weeks of school then it’s off to bigger and better things…for me anyway. IDK if Tara will even be able to be near me during college, and after the talk that we had the other day, it doesn’t seem like the future is very bright between us IF we aren’t in the same city. I guess I hope that her parents allow her to go to SF, but I don’t want to hold her back from her true potential. I can’t allow my own desire to get in the way of either of our futures, and I will not keep her from becoming all that she can be. I would have failed her if I was that selfish.
In short, Prom is in about 10 hours and I am fully prepared for it, but not super excited. This night could be great, who knows? What comes after is what worries me.